As I moved through the chakras, I found myself completely stalled in the heart.
Turning inward, I found the little room hidden within the lotus of my heart. I visualized the Shatkona—the interlocking triangles of the heart’s geometric seal—turning slowly. Within its rotation, I could see the gods and goddesses, the perfect dance of male and female energy, Shiva and Shakti. In that quiet room, I discovered the whole of space.
What exactly did I find there?
I found that creation, at its core, is that singular moment of conception when the sperm unites with the ovum. That was my very first moment of physical existence; my entire unique set of chromosomes was locked in at that exact second of my creation. On a biological level, that is all I am. Tat Tvam Asi—I am that… as they say.
This immediate physical reality mirrors the ancient truth found in the Chandogya Upanishad:
“Om. This body is the city of Brahman. Within it is an abode in the shape of a lotus, and within that there is a small space. One must search within this space and earnestly desire to know what is there. The space in the heart is as big as the space outside. Heaven and earth are both within it, so also fire and air, the sun and the moon, lightning and the stars…
Everything exists within that space in the embodied self—whatever it has or does not have. It is the Self—free from all sins as well as from old age, death, bereavement, hunger, and thirst. The body may decay due to old age, but the space within never decays. The Self resides in the heart. The word hṛdayam is derived thus: hṛdi + ayam—‘it is in the heart.’”
Every single layer of my individual life has been built, layer upon layer, over that original single cell. My physical body, my shifting emotions, and my complex thoughts have been stacked over that initial spark to create the person I am today. If even a fraction of a second had happened differently, I would be a completely different person. Every single sentient being on this earth is created exactly this way—through the cosmic joining of Shiva and Shakti, the male and female creative energies coming together to manifest absolute, distinct uniqueness. We are all built from this sacred blueprint of DNA.
Yet, after seeing this inner space and finding exactly what I thought I was seeking, I found myself completely stuck.
“What now?” I thought.
The vision hadn’t miraculously freed me. I didn’t feel enlightened. Instead, I felt a heavy weight of responsibility—a sudden, protective instinct that made me feel like I didn’t even want to share this knowledge. I didn’t know where to go from there. I felt heavy, grounded, as if I were just a body.
The clarity didn’t come until early this morning. I woke up before 4:00 AM to do my meditation. First, of course, I had to feed the cats who were already waiting out in the dark for me. But once they were fed and settled down, the quiet returned, and I could finally focus.
In the stillness, the realization hit me: the heart chakra is our ultimate cosmic crossroads.
When we stand in the room of the heart, we are presented with a choice, a profound opportunity. We can either choose to stay entirely in the physical plane—anchored to the world of chromosomes, cells, nerves, and muscles—or we can choose to cross the threshold and carry the energy upward into the higher three chakras.
The heart isn’t the final destination; it is the bridge. And so, with that weight lifted, I begin my work on Vishuddha.