As I moved through the Chakras, I was stalled in Heart chakra. I found the little room in the lotus of my heart. I visualized the Shatkona. It was turning slowly with the gods and goddess, the male and female energy, shiva and shakti. I found the whole of space.
What did I find? I found that creation is the moment of conception when the male sperm unites with the female ovum. That is my first moment of existence, my set of chromosomes is set in that first moment of my creation. That is all I am. I am that… as they say.
Om. This body is the city of Brahman. Within it is an abode in the shape of a lotus [i.e., the heart], and within that there is a small space. One must search within this space and earnestly desire to know what is there. ‘The space in the heart is as big as the space outside. Heaven and earth are both within it, so also fire and air, the sun and the moon, lightning and the stars.”
“Everything exists within that space in the embodied self—whatever it has or does not have. It is the Self—free from all sins as well as from old age, death, bereavement, hunger, and thirst. It is the cause of love of Truth and the cause of dedication to Truth. The body may decay due to old age, but the space within [i.e.brahmapura] never decays. Nor does it perish with the death of the body. Those who leave this world without knowing the Self and the Truths which they should know are not free, no matter where they go. But those who leave this world after knowing the Self and the Truths which they should know are free, no matter where they are. The Self resides in the heart. The word hṛdayam is derived thus: hṛdi + ayam—‘it is in the heart.’ Therefore the heart is called hṛdayam. Then, this person, who is the embodiment of happiness, emerging from the body and attaining the highest light, assumes his real nature. This is the Self. It is immortal and also fearless. It is Brahman. Another name for Brahman is satya, Truth.”
All the layers of my individual life have been layered over and over that single cell. My body and my emotions and thoughts have been layered over and over to create the person who I am today. If anything had happened differently, I would be a different person.
I was stuck with the knowledge that I have seen the inner space in my heart and found what I seek. What now? I thought. It hasn’t freed me, I don’t feel enlightened. I feel that I have a responsibility that I don’t want to share this knowledge.
We are just a chromosome made from DNA. Every single being on the earth is created by the joining of shiva and shakti, the male and female creative energy. Every single sentient being is created with their own uniqueness.
I didn’t know where to go from there. I felt like I am just a body.
I woke up before 4am this morning and did my meditation. I had to feed the cats who were waiting for me outside in the dark too. But once they were fed and settled down, I could focus.
I realized that we have an opportunity in the heart chakra. We can either stay in the physical plane, of chromosomes cells, nerves and muscles or we can carry onto the higher 3 chakras. So, I will start on Vishuddha today.